Daily Updates

I have skipped two days of blog entry due to busy weekend and lazy attitude, so I have to come up with three entries for today, which one of them is published just now.

Sometimes I asked myself, why do I need to start to force myself to update my blog daily? It’s not like its very important, or I have many readers. In fact, no one gives a shit about what I write here and probably nobody even knows the existence of this blog. However, when I think that, If I can’t even update a simple blog daily, how am I suppose to manage my daily life, daily task or perhaps daily business in the future? Hence, I’m taking this chance to train myself, to be consistent about what I want to do.

Even a little bit, helps training myself, and my mentality, to stay consistent, and keep to my goals ahead. Will start off with normal entries with simple thoughts, while planning ahead on what should I achieve or learn in the coming days.

This entry is for yesterday. 12 March, Monday.

Weekends

Busy weekend. This post supposed to be the post for Sunday as I set the target to update daily if possible. I'm already two days off my schedule, and have no choice but to put up a blank post to mark down the date, just to remind myself I have pending items to do.

Saturday was busy and a whole chunk of my time was allocated for the badminton tournament, which end up badly for my team. Resting at night, I barely touch anything that I initially planned to do. Laziness struck me again.

Sunday, today I have to accompany my mum for shopping as she has been staying at home for too long. It’s time to bring her out for a walk and hence there goes my time. My morning was spend in Tesco, shopping for groceries while the evening was spend in The Curve, doing shopping and dinner.

The gap in between Tesco and The Curve, is filled by my laziness again. Doing some light reading, watching TV and casual online while waiting to go out again in the evening. It has been some time since I last came to The Curve, they have changed their parking rates too, effective January 2012.

Mum and sis were busy visiting boutiques and stores while I went to some book stores to see whether there are books that I’m interested. Found some books about management, finance and marketing with appealing title and content, but not so appealing price tag. It seems like I still have to stick to Uncle Google for the materials that I need.

I used to see Citibank banners and posters everywhere while walking along The Street, now they are all replaced by OCBC’s banners and posters, with their offer for 20% dining at The Curve. Looks like it’s the opportunity for me to use my credit card to treat my family a dinner here at The Curve. Brought them for dinner, and received my rebate notification via sms the next day.

This is the first time I really enjoy the benefit of having a credit card, alongside with the usual RM50 rebates monthly.

A busy weekend, and yet another busy weekend ahead.

Badminton day

Today I had a badminton tournament, it has been awhile since I last played badminton. Since second year of uni to be honest.

It was a group tournament, something like thomas cup where the group scores counts more than individual matches.

My first match was a tough one because i'm the last pair of my group and we are even out at 2-2 by that time.

Being at such pressurized state, I began to lose some controls because I know i'm far from the playing form I used to have in uni, which is not that good that time anyway. But at least is much better than now, furthermore my stamina has been lacking since i'm a lazy guy at sport.

Anyway, that's not the main thing I wish to highlight. It's the mental pressure that I faced during that match. I believe everyone suffers from mental presure especially when it comes to things that you are not confident at.

Giving that i'm always confident at doing my stuff, sometimes I do face situations where I'll fear and afraid. And whenever such feeling comes, I'll lose my grip and everything went haywire. Similar situation happened before, which triggers my awareness that, i'm not invincible. I do have flaws and I do have weaknesses, everyone has, in fact. Whether you have more, or you have less.

The thing is, how to overcome your fears. Sometimes the lack of confidence pull you down from your normal state and cause you to perform worse than usual.

I lost my grip during my first match, I missed too many chances where I should score. Even thou my opponents are not that strong, the weak in myself amplifies under the pressure to perform, to score, and to nail it. Eventually we lost the match as expected. Realizing I can actually perform better during that match and maybe even winning it.

This situation is like a deja vu to me where I faced the same situation in the incident I mentioned earlier. It's not that I cannot perform, it's the desire in me that pulls me down from what I really good at. My stress handling has become so weak that I don't even realize it. It's all because of my slacking, my ignorance to self improve. Contended to what I achieved for my academic goal, I felt that I were good.

Realizing the fact that this feeling is haunting me again, I regain myself for my next round.

This time, our opponents are much stronger than previous team. However, because I have my mind set still before the match, I'm able to minimize my mistakes and regain some performance that I lost during the first match.

This clearly shows that, the mindset is very important to determine the outcome. It's normal when dealing simple tasks but when decision making or pressurized situation, the mindset is very important. I will always keep this in mind, and not forgetting to self improve.

A badminton match, different situation, but same theory applies.

Update: Some what related, but just for share.

 

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Chilling

Today is a chilling day.
The cold weather from the heavy rain last night,
was carried forward today.

Today's progress is slow,
need to keep on going tomorrow.

Signing off.

A blog a day..

A blog a day, keeps my laziness away..
I will try to blog everyday, from today.
As a habit, not to blog, but to keep it going.
To remind myself, I have my goals ahead.

I have been slacking a lot since start of work.
Laziness has bitten into my bones and became part of it.
Because I felt that I'm best at what I'm doing;
I'm better than anyone else in my company, made me stop to improve myself.
Arrogance, I would say.

Another reason is lack of motivation.

I start to slack, procrastinate.
Always think that it's not worth giving more,
since they will not appreciate.
Demotivated, I would say.

So, I slow my pace.
I remain stagnant;
I remain confident;
I still think that, I'm at my best.
Slowly I realise, I'm actually downgrading.
Rotting as time pass by.

A recent incident woke me up.
Hitting me hard, bringing me down to earth.
I then realised, what I have missed for the pass year.
Wasted my precious time, doing things that doesn't benefit.
Stupid, I would say.

Since then, I replan my whole future vision.
I start reading and researching ways to upgrade myself.
The enthusiasm and passion I long lost,
 revived again..